Overheard!

Black TA, walking in five minutes before class: Oh my god, am I early? Oh, no! I'm going against my people's stereotype!

--Classroom, NYU

Overheard by: kpan

Thoughts

Last night, lying in my bed in the dark because I was tired and there was nothing interesting on TV, I allowed myself a couple of hours for my mind to depart wildly from what I know to be reality, and panic about things I have no control over and that panicking about does not help at all (ie the very, very distant future), and think and feel things I know to be (maybe) patently untrue (ie no one likes me they're all just pretending and i have made no impact on anyone whatsoever). Who knows how long I would have continued to wallow and narrowly fight off hyperventilation, but someone texted me and made me feel much better by showing me that I wasn't forgotten. I'm a retard. Anyway, I came to several conclusions.

I decided that I do not like feeling alone. And even when I know I am lonely and could very easily reach out to someone, I don't, because I don't think my emotions are legitimate. And I always think people are doing something more important and I shouldn't bother them with my stupid whining. Whine whine blog whine.

How are you supposed to plan for the future when you have no idea what you want to do with your life? How can you make promises for the future when it feels like lying, because you can never be sure? Why can't people just take it one day at a time, and take solace in the moment, instead of worrying about what trajectory they're taking in the future?

Is there anything constant/static in life?

Why can't we all just get along?

I am in an emo funk. This has not happened in a while. I am not sure why.

Has anyone noticed how happy trance music actually seems sad? Or am I just rubbing off on everything around me.

What I Also Think

"Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired." - Mother Teresa

Resolved:

I am going to be a better human being.

Oh wait, I've said this before, haven't I?

Single.

Happy Pride.

A Thought

Wouldn't it be funny if Facebook, caught up in its "like" and "dislike" actions, started adding the ability for users to vocalize these emotions on EVERYTHING? I imagine dialogue would go something (clumsily) like "I like that your friend liked another friend's comment on a mutual acquaintance's post to a complete stranger's wall. I like this comment, and this like on this like on this comment, and this like on this like on this like on this like like like like" and I don't think anyone would know what was going on anymore.

Reminds me of how when you hold up a mirror to another mirror you make an optical illusion of an endless "hallway."

Overheard

Boss: Wait, can I ask a city girl question? Do butterflies come from caterpillars??

--Office, 8th Ave

Overheard by: kpan